all the comics i bought the other day have inspired a different style of drawing to what i usually do,im currently working on something right now & i’m very proud of it ..which is unusual

just now ive woke up in tears crying like a child,i had a dream about my granddad who passed away a year ago, we was in my Nana’s house and he was at that stage where he was loosing it,loosing his mind,i was making him a coffee but my Nana said he’s not allowed it but my granddad was sort of like childish like me so i snook him a coffee,we went outside somewhere playing  baseball with a broom stick,he was sat on some steps i told him to come play he wouldn’t,he’s gone inside this house a massive one an started drawing with red marker on the floor,he was then sat on the floor and did’nt want to move so i held his arms and tried to drag him across the floor,it was then then he started fading away,disappearing right in front of me,i started to shout tide granddad don’t go don’t go then he disappeared all of him ..then i woke up in my room crying my eyes out,my mum came in with my older sister  and hugged me,i miss my granddad so much,i never even got to say goodbye to him i missed his funeral.i feel like the dream I’ve just had was him getting through to me and in some sense i finally got to say goodbye.

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I have to stop desiring thing’s I really do not need.

Stress free..

Finally after a long hard year of university ,i am free! no more work to do no more last minute stress for 5months i can do what i want usually people would just get wasted,holidays and what not but I’m just going to use the time wisely catch up on a few books I’ve wanted to read re-do the  graffiti my bedroom,i really cant wait to start,fix my bmx up ,teach myself Spanish,learn more about myself..build up my photography portfolio & attempt this clothing line with my friend..

I’m nerdy i know..but yeah

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I feel like doing a  cartwheel, front flip & a back flip all at once right now,all of my university work is DONE, i  now have  4 months of freedom which will involve,Reading,learning Spanish,bike rides,tanning because i’m pale as fuck,fixing up my bmx,maybe dance class,running,AYAI NAPA!,Long car journeys,camping,raves,Photography shoots,alcohol consumption,basically running wild and free ..

Fuck you University..for now ..for now ^.^

my day is not normal unless I listen to Paramore..

if i never made Tumblr..my coursework would always be done on time..

Just woke up in my mums bed hungover to the maximum,my lips have gone cherry red and juicy looking, my head feels like its about to explode  & i have university work to-do still… *hands gun to self *

Hurt..

Being hurt is apart of life,the deepest songs are wrote by people who have been hurt,or going through something painful in their life,the best art & poems have been created through pain…so in my eyes being hurt is a big part of life to help release your deepest talents and in some way find a deeper you..

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Tired is an actual understatement,i cant focus or think straight,staying in a library until half 5 this morning helped me get my work done but it’s made me feel ill,made my eyes puffy and my body clock messed up :/

Attempting to get all my work done is a joke… I’m  sat procrastinating..as per!, in the library watching Disney’s Cinderella ..

as soon as university is done next week i’m picking back up on reading,theres a few interesting things i want to read  such as  sacred spiritual texts and some new age literature,things like ancient Egypt,bible apocrypha, Buddhism,hermetic,kabbalah, Taoism and a lot more!!

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made the whole living room into a den, closed the curtains,its pitch black turned the lights off,getting my mum to get me some sweets and energy drinks..just so i can focus and do my university work.. I’m a vampire at heart i just don’t know it yet

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